joi, august 11, 2011

About bonds


What do you do when you're not sure?

Who among us did not experience the most profound disorientation? Despair: Which way? What now? What do I say to my kids? What do I tell myself?

There were times of people sitting together, bound together by a common feeling of hopelessness. But think of that! In such times, your bond with your fellow being was your despair. Despair as a public experience. No matter how awful, but people were in it together. How much worse is it then for the lone man, the lone woman, stricken by a private calamity?

‘No one knows I’m sick.’
‘No one knows I’ve lost my last real friend.’
‘No one knows I’ve done something wrong.’

Imagine the isolation. Now you see the world as through a window. On one side of the glass: happy, untroubled people, and on the other side: you.

I want to tell you a story. A cargo ship sank one night. It caught fire and went down. And only this one sailor survived. He found a lifeboat, rigged a sail…and being of a nautical discipline…turned his eyes to the Heavens and read the stars. He set a course for his home, and exhausted, fell asleep. Clouds rolled in. And for the next twenty nights, he could no longer see the stars. He thought he was on course, but there was no way to be certain. And as the days rolled on, and the sailor wasted away, he began to have doubts. Had he set his course right? Was he still going on towards his home? Or was he horribly lost… and doomed to a terrible death? No way to know. The message of the constellations - had he imagined it because of his desperate circumstance? Or had he seen truth once… and now had to hold on to it without further reassurance?

There are some of you who know exactly the crisis of faith I describe.

And I want to say to you: DOUBT can be a bond as powerful and sustaining as certainty. When you are lost, you are not alone.



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